It has been a month of life forcing me to slow down and be still and I couldn’t be more grateful. We are always running to the next place or doing the next thing that we lose sight of all the things in between. The expectations that we set on ourselves are a reflection of our busy world to do more and be more. I have spent decades of my life trying to BE this or that so I would achieve the desired outcome. That is what we are conditioned to believe and I fell victim to it for most of my life. Those moments usually lead to disappointment or heartache because I was placing my happiness on external validation or someone else.
Not having a running to do list this past month because I couldn’t gave me space I needed more than my soul realized. This weekend was the St. Patricks Day parade which usually would involve lots of plans and people. This year I made none! I spent Friday evening rearranging my back porch to create a space of solitude and calm. And then I spent the rest of the weekend out here reading and writing with no expectations, no deadlines, and no running to do list. The whole time was spent listening to the birds chirp, feeling the breeze blow in, sipping coffee, and listening to my dog snore in my papasan chair (Yes my dog snores and it’s adorable). My point is I created that, I created my own freedom by being fully present to experience everything around me.
There has been a sense of calm filled with so much love and joy this weekend. It made me realize I have spent so much of my life doing and being what I thought was expected, instead of doing exactly what I wanted and honoring who I am. Now suddenly all the noise is gone! From this moment forward I will intentionally create my life one moment at time at whatever pace I feel called to. We all have a choice in how much light we allow in through the darkness!
With love,
Heather